"Met"

So this guy who I like to call "met"...

I have a total love/hate relationship with him, only thing is that this love/hate thing is internal. He doesn't know about it. I feel too bad telling him "look, I do not like you more than a friend", but i feel bad for leading him on too. I know, I should stop this before it's too deep and he's hurt, but i need to find the right time.

there will never be a right time. sucks, doesn't it?

He's not a bad guy, but he just doesn't do it for me. there's no "fireworks", and i totally need the fireworks for me to commit to one guy. Yes, sad but true, but it's very hard for me to stay monogomous.

So this is my current dilemma, but at least I have an apt now.